another untitled poem

reflections on alternate forms of motherhood and becoming an elder

what kind of mother am i

i have no kids

sometimes i dream about having some

i think what i actually want

is people worthy of my love

who would never have to earn it

i think it’s just a desire to love

i decided when i was still a child that

only children were truly deserving of unconditional love

i think about the logic of it all

how it makes sense just to try it

i’ve always wanted to try everything

but that’s one of those decisions

that you can’t take back

i would make a home

a house like in ballroom

but not a business

and i’d care for young trans girls

help them find their way

i know exactly how it feels to mother yourself

and its difficult when you’ve had little to no examples

so, i am a mother

but i likely won’t ever have small children

or take care of a baby

but i will have children

a great many daughters who i hope will change the world.