another untitled poem
reflections on alternate forms of motherhood and becoming an elder
what kind of mother am i
i have no kids
sometimes i dream about having some
i think what i actually want
is people worthy of my love
who would never have to earn it
i think it’s just a desire to love
i decided when i was still a child that
only children were truly deserving of unconditional love
i think about the logic of it all
how it makes sense just to try it
i’ve always wanted to try everything
but that’s one of those decisions
that you can’t take back
i would make a home
a house like in ballroom
but not a business
and i’d care for young trans girls
help them find their way
i know exactly how it feels to mother yourself
and its difficult when you’ve had little to no examples
so, i am a mother
but i likely won’t ever have small children
or take care of a baby
but i will have children
a great many daughters who i hope will change the world.


Oof my heart. Mothering found me by accident and god knows I wasn't ready but Id never change it.